I’m too much of a kind, considerate, optimistic person, it’s bad. For me. I’m not the type of person to give up, even if it’s bad for me.
Sometimes I feel like people are taking advantage of that, not knowingly of course (I hope not). People just know that I’ll be there for them, no matter what. I just know that they’ll miss me when I’m gone, or when I’ve decided to say ‘no go fuck yourself’ for a change.
Most of the time I set my feelings aside until it’s a good time for the other person to hear my side, which doesn’t always necessary translate my feelings because I’m always cushioning my sentences so things don’t get worse. I guess that’s a good thing.
I care too much.
I’ve been through a lot in my life and I think I’ve handled it well. Or I’ve swept it under the rug enough to the point where I don’t feel it. Although lately things that happened in the past are just coming up in my mind and I get really emotional. I’m a strong person for being who I am considering all the things I’ve been through.
There’s a lot of stress and pressure to get my life moving. i.e being a financially independent adult and finally being able to find a place where I can call home. There’s a lump in my neck. It’s probably from stress. I’ve been experiencing a lot of symptoms that’s related to stress. Or I have like a bunch of diseases.
I don’t sleep well, or much, when she’s upset. It sucks, especially when I have to wake up early. Again, I care too much. Sometimes I have to cry myself to sleep.
I haven’t cried this much in a period of time since I was an infant probably.
I’ve been feeling like no one can really handle me when I’m upset.
Why can’t people treat other people the same way they want to be treated? Unless you like that submissive shit, than no thank you.
I need to love and respect myself more. Give myself what I deserve instead of giving to others. Easier said than done.
Sometimes I feel like what I’m doing is never enough.
People post things on blogs and such to be heard right? I don’t know why I’m posting this on here because I really don’t care if people read this. But I actually low key do right, since I’m posting it here instead of my private blog. It’s 3am and I’m just lonely.